Anxiety?
I am finding that true, the older I get.
which is an interesting phenomena of the aging process... no? maybe I need to cultivate a more childlike mind... yet retain my adult like reasoning and concentrating abilities...
for example,
false accusations made against me by coworkers, conflict of interest and other trials in the workplace plague my mind when I begin to think of those who publicly humiliated me or had some form of relationship with. I also feel anxiety when I am trying to grasp at idea's of who I want to be, who I ought to be when I am being bombarded by the expectations of my coworkers and supervisors. in general these two intermingle when I get to work and it feels a bit like a mental handicap preventing me from being able to accept things and grow. I battle with it, I will overcome but it is there nonetheless.
Observe Mars transiting your 12 th house at this time bringing to the surface demoralizing and undermining conversations with women that make your work and service problematic at this crucial time. It may instigate change in career. At the very least an opportunity to make changes in regards to career outlook. What is happening in your environment now is causing a total change in outlook about relationships because of confrontation with others who you have had relationships with.
Transit Mars in the 12th House
When transit Mars is in your 12th house, you’re driven to retreat and reflect. Being around other people can be draining to you right now, and you prefer being alone. Working alone is when you have the best energy, and you want to be out of the spotlight and working behind the scenes where no one will notice you. Your dreams become more prominent, and you can have some wild dreams, find yourself daydreaming more, or conversely, have trouble sleeping. Your imagination can surge, and this can be a creative time. Your intuition can surge as well, though you may not be consciously aware of that. Make sure you give yourself plenty of time to rest, replenish, and recover so you’re ready for when transit Mars enters your 1st house and life gets hectic.
My friend there are some strange things happening behind the scenes presently that are strongly affecting communication in your work place. Taking an interest in you and the karma you are presently working out.
Transit Mars Conjunct Neptune
The transit of Mars conjunct your natal Neptune is a very peculiar period, full of strange sensations. You feel restless, tired, or depressed without knowing why. Neptune has the quality of denying the self, and this will manifest as a sense of weakness or inferiority.
You do not clearly perceive the way you should act in the face of certain problems. You might have to take a couple of days to meditate and make contact with your inner life. Do not take yourself too seriously now. You need to retreat to gather strength and avoid the possibility of deceiving yourself.
You may get a more global point of view and understand everything more intuitively. Be careful with those people whose honesty or loyalty to you has not been proven.
You are in a time of great imagination, inspiration, and idealism, and it would be good if you were engaged in some spiritual or artistic activity. You desire to serve others, to give yourself selflessly and without selfishness.
You must reserve your physical energies, otherwise exhaustion will cause you problems in the future. Let things be solved by themselves. Keep your inner faith and you will feel a great inner peace.
Transiting Mars conjunct Neptune The desire to act out a fantasy or to take action on a compassionate or idealistic level is very strong now. You may feel that nothing is impossible now, or you could find yourself acting on a whim. Your impulses and desires may be hard to explain or difficult to understand now. You could feel impatient or restless with your regular routines, and especially practical endeavors, and the desire for more glamor or drama in your life is strong. Inspiration can be found now. This transit favors dancing, swimming, photography, arts, and entertainment. It’s not good for practical or routine matters.
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