yes, that's something i'm trying to say- my needs seem superficial. funny how we give meaning to meaningless things. guess it has to do with spiritual lessons. if i believed everything i thought. . . i'd probably be dead
heheh noooo idk. i was just upset for acting selfishly with some of my friends recently. blinded through ignorance, expecting too much and not being able to give in return. it's not really intentional, so i'm hoping somewhere a long the lines of entering meditation- i'm able to gain clarity of these moments and help things flow positively, even when that means separating. at least i'd be exerting will in a direction that FEELS right-at the same time, life is asking from me things in return in order to travel this path. haha idk why im posting anymore. there's really nothing to say. thanks for humoring me i suppose. really. stirring up things for no reason. i will find it soon ! something. . .
gAHHHH heheheheh
