I think you are a good person. Have never said otherwise. Sharing fear is part of the new me opening up. In general, I only share the good and strong parts. But that has not served me very well in the past. As you know, everyone needs their own time for comprehension. You cannot just tell someone something. They have to live it or observe it for themselves. My sharing with you the inner wondering of wether or not you are a 'nut' is not meant to be derogatory or mean. It is respect, the puppy showing its under belly, a person being honest about where they are at. If I did not care or question at all, I would not come here. So! That said, let us lighten up, okay? If you are already light - super! I am a little heavy sometimes. You know my chart. Bless you and your owls, and your music. I am off to tuck the kids in bed. Peace -
i can relate to what u mean when u say 'sharing the good and strong parts and how it has 'not always served u well in the past.' i remember Eric once told me that sometimes u can extend the hand of friendship and kindness to others and they can literally cut it off.
Sometimes though u find people that u would like to b light hearted with that u come to realize they do are not light hearted themselves and u have to take their intentions and feelings seriously. i think that is what u saw taking place at yoganandaji.org with someone u and i knew on the forum. What started out to be lightness, years of friendship and joking around ended up to b dead serious. Circumstances changed all that. Changes in relationships can also make dramatic changes in how people act towards one another. New people that come into their life may cause them to act quite different then they had before.
So u see u never know for sure the level of what u have triggered in someone else. It is good to stand back and say 'wow something i say or do may trigger past experiences in some one that were traumatic without me even knowing it. Or they may want something from me/you emotionally and as a friend, that i/you are unable to presently give to them. When they do not get it
some can become easily vindictive. Suddenly you become the enemy and you can be accused and blamed for things that have never taken place or you have never done. It is not a general rule but we have to realize that mental illness is very prevalent in our culture and can and has manifested many times for many of us from other lost and weary souls living in their own private hell.
c'est bien vrai!
