Wonderful Shannon
i think you have a very good topic to start here. Although i must admit that i made it into a topic. We are very fortunate to have you with us even though it may be a difficult time for you. Thanks for getting involved and being a friend! Perhaps others can relate to your latest post above. If not----
I can! There are signals others give out that show they are not sensitive to your vulnerability. There can be coldness, aloofness, criticism, anger and actual abuse. When we experience these qualities coming from others we become aware that we can no longer be vulnerable with them. We must find another place to show child like openness.
It is true that the sign Scorpio is most often secretive. As you probably also know you have many other things happening in your chart. Mars and Uranus in Libra and the Moon in Sagittarius brings a whole different type of character! They just need a chance to be activated and Saturn transiting the seventh house in proximity to your Moon--this whole year--makes you look seriously at the way you have been handling relationships and what they now mean to you. It would be more difficult for you to be light hearted during this year because you are taking a deep look at your past and your emotions are coming to the surface for you to be more cognizant of. However at the same time you have Jupiter transiting your 5th house which is saying ' But i want to have fun . I want to enjoy life and want to enjoy the time i have with my kids. i want to venture out and find new people to share creativity and the pleasures that come with life.' Sometimes life can be like this; A mixture of contrary emotions and energies. We could go deeper and deeper into the world of Shannon and what is happening. For instance the Mars transit in your sixth house is activating fears and inhibitions from the past for the short term.
You see though this is one of my vulnerabilities. i know i have something to offer but people often use me for it and sometimes even make fun of this entity called Steve. We all have this little kid in us that likes to express itself but often people cannot appreciate it.
But it is a mistake to over simplify the people and life we are experiencing. A person can be a little nutty at times. But often it is that very difference that attracts us to them. Maybe its not so nutty after all. Maybe there is something unusual happening here that i have something to learn from; that is a better attitude i have taken over the years. That is what i have found out about some people and situations. Shannon as you said; 'God is trying to expand our outlook.' It has happened to me many times..... we are stretching, stretching growing. We can look at our life and the people in it, much different as the years pass. Time, experience and the Master's guidance wears away at our preconceived ideas about ourselves and others -- and reveals to us the beauty of petals opening to the Sun's mighty power to awaken.
i can relate to what u mean when u say 'sharing the good and strong parts and how it has 'not always served u well in the past.' i remember Eric once told me that sometimes u can extend the hand of friendship and kindness to others and they can literally cut it off.
Sometimes though u find people that u would like to b light hearted with that u come to realize they do are not light hearted themselves and u have to take their intentions and feelings seriously. i think that is what u saw taking place at yoganandaji.org with someone u and i knew on the forum. What started out to be lightness, years of friendship and joking around ended up to b dead serious. Circumstances changed all that. Changes in relationships can also make dramatic changes in how people act towards one another. New people that come into their life may cause them to act quite different then they had before.
So u see u never know for sure the level of what u have triggered in someone else. It is good to stand back and say 'wow something i say or do may trigger past experiences in some one that were traumatic without me even knowing it. Or they may want something from me/you emotionally and as a friend, that i/you are unable to presently give to them. When they do not get it some can become easily vindictive. Suddenly you become the enemy and you can be accused and blamed for things that have never taken place or you have never done. It is not a general rule but we have to realize that mental illness is very prevalent in our culture and can and has manifested many times for many of us from other lost and weary souls living in their own private hell.
c'est bien vrai!
Yes, very true.
I wish to be light hearted - am here to play, to learn, to share and be inspired - to help where and when I can, to tackle heavy topics when others are interested as well, but not in a judgemental sense, etc. At the same time I am experimenting with vulnerability - allowing more than just my happiest and strongest parts to be seen because to be fully genuine one must be okay with being vulnerable. Vulnerability is an important human quality. That is what I meant by it not serving me in the past - sharing only the good, etc. Does that make sense? This recent separation with my husband has been eye opening. I consciously chose against my usual habit to share certain not-so-inspiring feelings with my friends and family, and was very touched by the outpouring of compassion. I was not surprised, becuase compassion is of course what we all feel when others are in pain, but it was still difficult for me to do (you know how Scorpios can be!). I am now trying to stretch that concept/habit further in daily life. It's a process. I would be interested to know if others have thought of 'vulnerability' as a concept - a useful, beautiful thing (or not) - but maybe I am going off topic. What were we talking about? Lol.
