My relationship became strained with time. He became progressively more stubborn and senseless in his attitudes, in such an unpleasant way that he was just about the only person who could unnerve me.
Otherwise I was just aware of his limitations. Not everyone is so lucky to have an ideal father and I've been anyway the luckiest to meet a gigantic spiritual-father figure.
Yes i didn't have the ideal father either but i became very fortunate to have the blessings of Paramahansa Yogananda and Amma. i feel as though they are the rafts that have taken me thru much turbulent waters and have left me with peace many times in my life. Even when i did not expect it there were miracles being around such people and thinking about them while carrying their spirit with me as much as i can remember to do so.