Yes, I used to subconsciously try make such things appear as I was expecting visions. It wasn't until later on that I figured out that visions, no matter how wonderful, are still mental phenomena and therefore distractions.
I remember Sri Yukteswar said that many people renounce worldy attractions only to seek them on the spiritual plane. I now understand what he meant.
Ramana said, "In truth there is nothing visual." He also once said there was silence of speech, silence of the eyes, silence of the ears, and silence of the mind. The last one being the
mauna state.
