Message #30718

[guest88]

tonight was especially special. auspicious maybe?
a sense of release and reclaim... disenchanting and freeing. true strength. it seems i was grieving, though i had the ability to see by reason and by having a support system early on- the unchecked emotional and physical depravity came later, like a disconnect. lazy, unwanted energy. but tonight, taking a stroll in the dark- refreshing cool winds... i felt a power in the stillness. almost zenith
what does this mean...? as the years go by i realize not to rely on the mind but to reach past. though i saw the imagination taking hold of this momentary feeling of absolute, the power is... perfect. every cell, touched by infinite potential, pure stillness. a toe dipped in the water, the ripples cleansing the mind...

thank god. <3