mccoy I know that sensation of hearing the heart. It sometimes becomes audible especially when wearing ear plugs. i get a little squeamish at the sound of my heart beat
You don't feel that way?
Your story reminds me of some people I have met and spent time with. They may be impotent and can't believe I would actually be making an effort to practice celibacy. Or they just can't quite get their head around the idea of sitting for long periods meditating. To them you are "doing nothing". Or they may say that they 'don't have to set so long' to practice meditation. Or that they meditate when they are fishing. I just think to myself: That satanic force sure has a lot of ways of discouraging us.